CHANGE. Do It Anyway

Most of us are well acquainted with doing things that we don’t want to do.  Going to work, taking out the trash, adulting and the list goes on.  There are some things though, that completely go against our “nature” or our “common sense” that we don’t want to do and don’t.  Like the Call of God.  The death of ourselves as we know them.  

The other day, this post started to germinate.  I was engaged in my day, and out loud, to myself,f I said, “I don’t feel like doing that.”  In that moment, conviction hit me.  Not enough to knock me down, but enough to get my undivided attention.

I noticed that it’s something that I say often.  If I don’t feel like doing it, it won’t be done.  If I do, then “it”, whatever that thing is, gets done.  But, this particular day, it hit differently.  The stigma of being forced to do or be something, now that I’m looking at it, seems to be a place of trauma and my default response of resistance has been, I don’t feel like it.  The freedom of deciding.  The ability to choose.  I think when and because that was taken away, as soon as the chance came to regain it, I took it back quickly!

However, at what cost to me have I been exercising this ‘freedom’?  Is it a freedom at all? Or is it a bondage in disguise?  I think it can be both. Depending on the persons involved and the situation/circumstances.  Sometimes, it is a freedom, a luxury even, to be able to say, “No. Not today.”  Whereas, in another circumstance it can be a limiting frame of mind, attitude; a prison of predisposition that hinders me from getting to where I belong in every area of life.

I thought about some people who have been so kind to share their lives with me in my manual called Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth. (Bible) These men were and are Great men of Valor; doing, being and becoming such objects of renown and awe.  Yet, I noticed that they all had to do what they didn’t want to do and in so doing, they became more than they ever thought or imagined themselves to be or become. {Eph. 3:20} Firstly,  I just want to point out that they all are being read about thousands of years after their leaving this realm.  ICONIC!!

Secondly, they all were pleasing to their Creator by their faith.  Believing even when not seeing. Maybe with a tinge of doubt, fear, distrust, yet, moving and doing.  Being.  Becoming.  And thirdly, they all completed what they were born to do.  All by doing what they didn’t want to do.  There was a Greater on the inside of them that DEMANDED they BECOME!  And that Greater they couldn’t resist.

Listen to these sentiments:

“I went in bitterness and in the anger of my Spirit.” Ezekiel 4:13

“I do not know how to speak; I am too young.” Jeremiah 1:6

“But Jonah ran away from the Lord.  Jonah obeyed the Word of the Lord and went.” Jonah 1:3 + 3:3

And this last one is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!!

“Please send someone else!”  Afterward, Moses and Aaron went...” Exodus 4:13 + 5:1

I love this last one because Moses is just Honest. No trying to sound this way or that.  Just plainly, I don’t want to!  However, in the sentiments of The Christ, who himself even had a moment of, ‘I don’t want this”, relented and relegated to, “Yet, not my will.  Your will be done.”  Such Masters of the Self and the Will.  I want to be like them when I grow up! 😊

In conclusion friends, I’ve made up my mind to #CHANGE.  #METAnoia.  Even when I don’t want to, guess what?  Here I am.  Send me shall be my Hearts response.  I don’t want to, but I’m willing. And my belief, my KNOWING is that one day, after the practice of Self-Mastery, I will no longer hear another voice saying, ‘I don’t want to.”  The slave called “flesh” will be so dominated and deceased that there will be no other voice but the Greater that says, “Yet not my will.  Your will be Done, EVERYTIME!

“Whoever has no rule over his own spirit is like a city broken down, without walls.” Proversbs 25:28

“But {like a boxer} I strictly discipline my body and make it my slave.” 1 Corinthians 9:27